Best Frienemy!

Hi all, we meet again! Yes, at last I can spend some time to post new entry on my blog. I was quite busy with my Final Examination, yeah as we all know engineer to-be does last minutes works, so do I. 

For this time, I would like to share something on a term called "Best Frienemy". It is the short form for Best "Friend + Enemy" which means someone who closed to you that shares joys and sadness with you and you guys absolutely love to quarrel without a single reason. Awhh, so sweet right?

Well, I also have one. Unfortunately, that person is him. Lets call him Mr. CL . I've been friend with him since Form 1 but we got closed when we're in Form 2. He is the one who always teasing me without getting bored. At a moment, we argued but we get back again and again until now. There was one day, I confused with my own feeling or maybe because of I'm feeling all alone that drove me wrong telling him that I like him more than a friend. You know what happened next? He didn't text or call me until I text him asking for his forgiveness. This is not what I ask for. Yeah, having a bestfriend with different sex is very challenging. So, I promised to him not to do that again. But I'm just a mere human. I tried to convert this feeling into something else and every time i was thinking of loving him more than a friend, I immediately manipulating my own feeling. I really love this Friendship. 

Hmm, a tough moment was  when he told me he has someone that he's going to take her as his wife. Gosh, that's hurt me so much. Seriously, I don't even mind if he told me he has lots of scandals but I feel pain after he told me this? Oh God! What is wrong with me. Why I have to feel this pain. I don't want to burst into tears but I can't stop it. Hmm! What should I do?

Loves,
rarajasmine.